Although I have been a believer since 1997, I spent much of the early 2000's lost in alcoholism. Since 2007, I have struggled with addiction on a daily basis, bouncing in and out of treatment facilities and hospitals, committing sin after sin, completely wrapped in the grips of my disease.
Having Hope Fellowship pastors regularly visit me in these places at such a hard time in my life is one of the main reasons I found my way back to Hope and to a personal relationship with God. Through being a member of Hope and a member of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have been able to get sober and begin living differently with a passion for serving God above all else.
In the past year, I have had the amazing opportunity to serve God at VBS, Adventure Kids, and most recently through Flight 4.5. In the worst stages of my alcholism, I found myself dying both physically and spiritually. I knew that the things I was doing were wrong, and that I was not behaving in a way that was not characteristic of the woman God has called me to be, but addiction had become my master. I was embarrassed and ashamed all of the time over the things I had done.
I found myself in a Sunday morning service listening to Pastor John speak about "Getting out of the Boat"... My boat was surrendering to my alcholism and turning to God for the last time. I got out of the boat, and my life hasnt been the same since. My goals in life have changed, my relationships have changed, and most importantly I am no longer embarrassed and ashamed to be me. I can see where God can use my past mistakes to help others, and I can see how necessary those times in my life were to bring me to a moment where I was willing to die to self and begin truly living for God.
I am ever grateful that I have the blessing of calling Hope Fellowship my home, and even more grateful for the opportunity to share my story and to share my time being of service to the other members of Hope.